I didn't know why I type this subject,
Maybe that's because I just saw something in mind in Taipei main station today.
These three days I have changed my transportation to the company.
Owing to the rain, I took MRT instead.
I Left my autobike at home.
It seems that it was a fantastic thought to change the habit in my daily routine.
Sometimes when you're away from the crowd for a long period time,
You'll miss the courage to face people again.
Take me as an example, I just want me to familiar with that kind of feeling again.
In these three months, I always had bad mood when I off work.
What was the reason that could upset me?
I had no idea.
Maybe the most part of the reason was emotions.
Or maybe I have just lost the focus to my lifelong ambition.
When I was a freshman in college, I just knew the life style that I want.
But passing through these years, at this time of moment, I had lose the loyalty to myself.
It's a pity that I have got this kind of thought.
But the cruel truth taught me a lot.
I started to change myself to fit this kind of hypocritical society.
I also had a lot of masks when I was finally get out of the campus.
Did I innocent?
The answer was obviously.
It seems that I had already been lose my pure soul in heart.
What should I do in the coming future days?
I really had no answer in mind.
Should I do everything ok or everything would be ko me?
I was afraid that I need to pray for the answer to GOD this time.
The rain was still going on,
Could u please stopped for a little while?
I NEED a silence in heart right away.
Maybe it was the time for me to bed.
What a god damn weather it was.
I hope I could have another good mood when I wake up tomorrow morning.
by hakido written in English before hitting the bed 06.06.09